Okay, this is weird.. it isn't in test mode, but it made that exact same sound as if it was... all my hoses are connected, because it works fine when the CEL is off... i am using my own MBC, but i removed it so it was stock and that didn't change anything... nope using the stock bpv too, with all the hoses straight and w/o kinks...
I removed the whole FCDII from my ecu harness, and it worked!

so either i built my fcd wrong, or it really doesn't like the CEL.. but i don't see how i built it wrong

the wiring is all correct according to 2 other people, maybe i have a weird car